It never fails.
Every single time I think I have a pretty good plan going, God laughs and says "Yeah right."
So, here I am. Again. My roads are splitting. Really, in 3 different directions. Boy am I confused.
1. Orlando - Home for a while. Friends. Family. Time to save money. That's IF I can even find a job down there. As it stands now, that's a far fetched impossibility. Unless I want to be a bill collector or a car salesman, I'm SOL.
2. A *potential* job opportunity has come up. The position I'm aiming high for would be in New York. Yeah. Umm...how about that for a curveball? The organization I'm being lead to, is headquartered there. I've always wanted to spend a summer, 6 months, MAYBE a year there. For good, I don't think so. The other position with this organization is very basic and would be in DC. Oh boy. Right back to where I want to be. I'm pretty certain once I submit my cover letter and resume, I'll get a phone call. The position in NYC would be amazing and I think I'd have a decent chance. The one in DC would be a slam dunk. Am I ready for this?
There's a lot to consider and I'm beyond freaked. Honestly, I need a job. Not just a job but a career. I'm desperate to get to where I want to be, where I need to be, where I'm feeling called to be. I took a leap (and a poverish pay cut) by accepting this job here in NC with the marketing company. I'm proud of myself for doing that. I enjoy it, but I just feel God is leading me in a different direction. I can't help people and share my life experiences while sitting behind a desk staffing people. To me, that's a waste.
On the other hand, I've learned a lot over the past few years about love and opportunity.
I just watched a movie tonight called "How Do You Know" with Reese & Paul Rudd. It was surprisingly cute. Not a top 10, but cute. It really made me think. Sorta.
What does following your heart really entail and how do you really know?
I already put my life plans on hold for someone who completely trashed them and destroyed me in the process. I'm not about to risk doing it again. But, how do I know it won't happen again? Isn't life about taking chances? What the HECK do I do?
This sitch with Romeo is crazy insane. I wish you all had known me for the past 12 years so you'd mildly be able to understand. The whole loved and lost, if he comes back it was meant to be, yada yada. All of that has already happened. So why? And now what? Why is someone still in your life in such a capacity if it's meant for nothing. I guess in two weeks, I'll gain some additional clarity.
For now, I'm going to spend lots of time in prayer and meditation. Asking God to lay on my heart what I should do. Regardless of the outcome, I'll rest in knowing I made the right choice for me in that particular time. Fingers crossed. Wish me luck.
Sounds like you have two very good prospects. I say submit your resume to both, like tossing a coin.
ReplyDeleteI was sort of where you are as far as jobs, although sort of involuntarily (PCSed to Germany). I thought that with my experience and education I'd get a job pretty easily. I pretty much took a nose-dive as far as pay was concerned ($82,000 a year to $8.00 per hour). I had to go to Kuwait for a job until something better opened up.
I watched "How Do You Know" just last week and I thought it was delightful. It reminded me of my husband. We met in 2005 in Iraq (he was/is Army and I was a civilian contractor). He asked me out a few times--not the sleazy "Wanna go back to my room?" desert booty call nonsense, but "When we get back to the states, I'd love to take out out to dinner or lunch." But I thought he was too young. I was 25 and he was 20. But we ended up becoming best friends. Then, we ended up in Iraq at the same time again, only at different. We started dating from afar and got married on our R&R. When I talked to his mother she said "He knew he was going to marry you. He told me when ya'll first started hanging out."
And when I watched the movie I asked myself "How the hell did he know?" And it brought a smile to my face. So I'll keep my fingers crossed for you and keep you in my prayers. Good luck in life and love :)
I know how you feel, being torn between two or three places to live and look for a job. If you come up with any great advice about making a decision, please pass the knowledge along!
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