This past weekend brought me lots of fun, but also a lot of time to think and reflect. I drove through some of the most beautiful and rural parts of the South. Being surrounded by mountains in the Shenandoah Valley was breathtaking. I've done LOTS of road tripping and I don't remember ever driving entirely through the valley. I'm someone who ponders things often and takes lots of time to think things through. This is why I love, love, love driving long distances. Some people think I'm insane, but I've made it from Orlando, FL to DC all alone in one fail swoop once. M&I drove from DC to Central TX in a straight shot too. Barely, but we did.
This trip, I realized how thankful I am that I know God's plan for my life. Well, maybe not all of it...but a general idea. I know some people are toiling over what they are supposed to do, where they are supposed to go, and what is intended for their lives. I know for certain, where God wants me to be and why. To me, that's a pretty incredible gift that I am really thankful for.
I fully believe God has a place for me in DC. I was once there, got side tracked, and now am having to work hard to get back. Nothing comes easily and God teaches through trials, so somehow I believe this was all part of the plan. I know once I'm back there for good, everything will start falling into place and I'll start seeing my life come together. Not saying it will be easy, and that I won't still experience trials and disappointments...but I have an insane amount of comfort in this clarity. I don't think I've ever experienced something like it before. The only thing that comes close is when I finally gave up my worries of infertility to God after struggling for so many years. I ended up having a miscarriage even after and that "clarity" was challenged, but I firmly believe in my heart God also has that area of my life covered as well. I know it will be more than I could ever have imagined once the proper time arrives.
Have you all ever had an insane moment of clarity? Have you spent many nights, months, or even years praying for an "aha!" moment?
I am praying for that moment right now in regards to my "plan" as well. God is leading me more and more towards working as a freelance writer full-time, but I have so many doubts. I'm hoping for clarity soon, too.
ReplyDeleteI'm so happy you are feeling called to DC! It isn't always easy to see what God has planned for us, and we struggle the whole way through at times, but when that moment comes, it is great. You really are blessed!