I have been so blessed over the past few months, weeks, and days by friends who have given me support and strength during one of the most trying times in my life. Some of these people (a lot of them) I have never met and more than likely never will. I have to share one of them with you that touched me a lot...
My Tweet: "In less than 24 hours I will be a divorced woman. Not sure how to feel."
Tweety Friend: "Well, it might sound odd, but loved. We're all here for you through whatever life brings you."
So, it's now 12:40am on the day of my divorce. I'm in the final hours of being a married woman. Of being Mrs. P who is married to Mr. P. Even though it's been over for quite some time, there is now a real finality to it all. I wouldn't want to be him in that courtroom in 10 hours. I wouldn't be able to walk in, sit there, or stand for that matter. I'd be absolutely 100% grief stricken. I wonder what others do when they go to finalize their divorces. Do they cry? Do they choke up? Are they elated? I'm lost.
I need to get to bed, but I really would like to video blog my feelings once the day passes. I will share them with everyone later in the evening.
Please pray for me. I know I have asked many times before, but please pray for strength, healing, and guidance. I have no fears as to my future and where God will take me from here. I really don't. I'm just sad. I'm sad I have to grieve yet another something. A baby wasn't enough. Now it's a marriage. A marriage I truthfully wanted with every core of my being.
Please pray for M. Pray for him to continue on a path towards physical, emotional, and spiritual healing. Pray he finds peace in this situation and comfort and happiness in his next life.