So Thankful...

God's got a serious grip on my heart this Christmas. When everyone has been asking me what I was doing this year and I respond that it's just Piper & I, they seem to feel sorry for me. I always explain that I'm actually looking forward to the peace and serenity this year. The calm. How many times in my life is this actually going to happen where I get time to just be with myself?

The song "Hello World" by Lady Antebellum is one I love but is so hard for me to listen to. It's about a husband who is caught up in the game of life. In the end, he comes home to his wife and kids and sees his whole world. The reason he's alive and what makes life worth living. It's an incredible song. How I wish I had that in my life. I know God will give it to me someday and it will be amazing. The way it always should have been. I truly cannot wait for that. I'm so glad my heart isn't hardened. I'm so thankful I have my faith in Jesus. I know He wants amazing things for me and has so much He wants to do yet with my life. It's super exciting. Instead of feeling sad, down, and depressed that things haven't turned out as I had hoped, I look to the future that I know is lying ahead of me.

I can't wait.

I'm so thankful and even in these hardships I'm facing, I rejoice. I'm thankful God has provided me with a roof over my head. I'm thankful He's enabled me to be able to put food on my table. I'm glad He's cared for me. As much as at times I hate to admit it (and may never again), I'm thankful He brought "M" into my life...if for nothing else than to make me realize what I deserve. To enable me to appreciate the right, deserving person when he comes along. I'm thankful for it all.

This is precisely why I wanted to be "alone" this Christmas. Not many people can understand it, but I knew in my heart it was the right thing to do for me. I feel so peaceful right now. I love it.

Please take a minute to listen to this song and watch this music video. I hope it touches your heart as much as it has touched mine.

Merry Christmas!