Praises

Why is it that we have such a hard time letting go and trusting God? I've spent so much of my time the past few months worrying and stressing. It got to the point where I was just wanting to hide in a corner for a few months curled up into a ball. I don't do well with uncertainty. When it comes to success and finance, I must be secure. After going through periods in my life where I was completely strapped, I never ever want to be there again. EVER. It's a terrible place to be. With this economy, it's dangerously scary. Anyway, I'm super thankful for a few things and one of them, I just learned tonight.

The job search here has been absolutely disheartening. The position at the children's boutique was what I was really hoping for and after not hearing from them I presumed all was lost. The owner did email me later to let me know they were postponing hiring until after the new year and that she wanted to meet with me then. I unfortunately, can't really wait around for the CHANCE to be hired. So, that was off the table. Another family I interviewed with were awesome and I felt super great about them, but again didn't hear anything when I was supposed to. I followed up with them and they were in fact still interested, but putting off hiring until after the holidays. They wanted to check with my references and get back to me by Friday with a decision. In the mean time, the family I'm caring for now doing overnights is having issues with their daytime nanny. They wanted to try to work things out with her, but it's just not going to happen. SO...(insert drum roll here)...they've asked me to become their full time, daytime nanny! YAY! I'll keep doing overnights for the next month, but will switch to daytime after that. I'm so blessed. After all of the stress and the need for Xanax, I'm going to be just fine. God took care of me.

If you've been a follower of mine for a while or just have read back to the beginning, you'll know I went through some scary times with abnormal paps. I had to go through two procedures in Texas and needed to follow up with a doctor again after 6 months. So, before I lost my TRICARE I made sure to see an OBGYN in Orlando while I was visiting. I called the office yesterday to find out that my results came back and everything is 100% awesome. Praise God! I was so worried I'd have to undergo additional surgeries and it would further hinder my ability to conceive. I already have enough issues with fertility, I don't need an ounce of anything else. I still have to do one more checkup in another 6 months, but for now...I'm in the clear. 

God always provides. We just have to learn to let go and let Him. One of the hardest things to do.