So these questions are becoming harder and harder to find answers for. I honestly, don't know how to answer this one either. I'm trying to think if there are people in my life who just drifted and I wish were still around. AHH! GOT IT!
So ya know that group photo I posted a while back? These kids...
I miss these guys. A lot. I miss the awesome times we used to have. I was never one to party, go crazy, and bar hop all over town. Thankfully, I had this amazing bunch of friends who I could let loose with and not have to worry about a thing. Our ring leader was Scott (the one all the way on the bottom left) who threw all the parties at his house. It was nice not having to party hop to crazy, sketchy places and be around people you didn't know. It was the same group of us, every single time. It was AWESOME. We got together for UCF tailgates, UFC fights, hockey matches, road trips...you name it and we did it. Most of these guys worked for my exes dads company so I met them sorta through him. Even after we broke up, these guys were my foundation of friends. For a couple years, it was just this circle. I realized I was blessed back then to have such great people in my life, but now that they aren't really there anymore...I realize it even more so. Anyway, things happened, I dated other people, lost touch with myself...and things got kinda awkward. I fell out from the group and things were never really the same again. Before I moved to Virginia last year, we did get together and have a goodbye party for me. It was fun, but things were different now. I miss these guys so much. I miss all the fun times we had together. There was never a dull moment. This was one of the most awesome times in my life. I was SO HAPPY.
In sort of related news, I can also say I'm sad I became distant with two exes. If you flashback to the entry about how much I love my eyes, you'll see a modeling picture of me with a guy. We'll call him "R." R and I met on set shooting a commercial for Sea World's new water park Aquatica. Hilarious (and QUITE the flirt) we hit it off right away. At the time, I was just starting a new job traveling with the LPGA and was flying in and out of cities all over the country. Shortly after that, he took off for upstate NY to help with his family business. Crazily enough, one of the stops on my tour was right where he was. It couldn't have been more perfect. None the less, we started "dating" during my tour and before he left for NY. We had a really fun, awesome relationship and I adored his family. It was really nice interacting with his younger sisters. Doing silly stuff like straightening their hair and making gingerbread houses at Christmas time. He even flew out on several occasions to see me at various points on my tour. We got to explore the country together and it was just awesome. Our relationship came to an end when I realized I wasn't going to turn into "THE ONE." He was looking for something I wasn't. We were going to be friends until drama and rumors reared their ugly head and we severed our friendship for good. I haven't spoken to him since. It sucks because I really enjoyed my time with him. He was a great guy and for the first time in my life, reciprocated all of the kindness I gave in relationships. I was so used to being the only one who thought of romantic and thoughtful things to do. We sent care packages back and forth while he was away, he painted beautiful paintings of the places we'd been together. AWESOME. I really feel that this relationship prepared me for my marriage to M. The distance thing taught me a lot as R and I were apart for 6-8 weeks at a time and only seeing each other for brief visits here and there. And did you catch my mention of care packages?? ;-) Anyway, it's just one of those things and being that we had a relationship of sorts, it's expected that it ended as it did. I'd love to know what he's up to now and I hope his family is doing well.
And NO, I don't mean in a "Is there still a chance?" sort of way.
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